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Bite Bite Bite Bite Bite Bite
Biting like a puppy
Burning like a puppy, suffocated in a bag
Like a baby baby baby, baby kitty cut...
Baby kitty cat cutting
Cute and confused I hear a whimper, the cartel boss sobs
Cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut, His face from his skull
Gasoline then, Burning the flesh there
THE FLAMES GO UP!
A scream of pain
A grunt of pain
A low whisper of pain
An awkwardly long silence of pain (THE FLAMES GO UP!)
A necessary recollection as to how we got here of pain
An indifferent radio chatter of pain
The job is, apparently done
No sound, other than the shuffle of feet
The cartel boss leans over.
The cartel boss leans over.
The cartel boss sobs.
A scream of pain
A grunt of pain
A low whisper of pain
An awkwardly long silence of pain (THE FLAMES GO UP!)
A scream of pain
A grunt of pain
A low whisper of pain
No sound, other than the shuffle of feet
Not dead... but not alive.
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Come here, come here, come here
Push a pin into my breast
I am your ashtray I am an axe
I am so mournful I am wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong
Hold me down down down and whisper
"YOU ARE MINE"
Drifting falling fading
Gurgling like a sink
I hope that you kill me
You are a savior you are so angry
You may not love me as I am am am am am
obsessed and and and platonic
"GET THE FUCK AWAy FROM ME"
Drifting falling fading
Gurgling like a sink
This is the mess we made
And when you get my text
Against the construction fence
We are our favorite bigots
We are fast We are free
We are going insane insane insane
Look at my text
"I'm sorry things turned out the way they did, but they did... I love you regardless"
Drifting falling fading
Gurgling like a sink
This is the mess we made
And when you get my text
You'll know Its over
And when you respond
I know you'll love me forever
Like a stolen lighter
They are obvious they aren't real
They'll never know know know
Still staring at my phone ...
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Life is Just... Not Worth Living is an album that was started 3 years ago, initially conceptualize under another alias I settled on this project, Jerkoff Savant. There are only 7 songs, though the initial draft had 14. I chose to cut those tracks simply because I don't think they are up to my standards, they will be reworked and released independently.
It's hard for me to say if this EP is done, or if it even constitutes being a full EP but I'm choosing to release it now. The reason for this is can't help but feel like these songs are about a temporary part of my life and as times arrow marches forward I'm reaching a point of stagnation in making it. Maybe its for the best that I never finish it. Maybe I'll go back one day and touch it up. It's hard to say.
All songs have vocals written for them, though I never ended up fully incorporating them on most tracks. I may at a later date, I may not. It's unclear as things stand.
Additionally I have a full two pages of scattered notes in some sketchbook somewhere about all the tiny alterations id like to make to these tracks. But as I get older and farther away from the headspace I was at the beginning of writing these, I begin to loose touch with my original intent, rather than tarnish what I may have, I'd rather release it now as is, imperfections and all.
Almost all tracks will be released as singles, with stems for other artists to remix or use for their own creative project.
I would like to thank Little Snake as his 4 sample packs heavily shaped the sound and direction of this release and this album would simply not sound as good without his sample packs. (link Below)
little-snake.bandcamp.com/album/a-fragmented-love-story-written-by-the-infinite-helix-architect
This EP features remixes by several other artists, I am Massively grateful for their contributions. their reworking of these songs truly breath new life into the record.
This EP, STEMS, and Remixes will be made available for download through the label Multi Level Management as well.
released January 28, 2023
Tracks 1, 5, 8 and 11 are not really songs but various snippets of audio experimentation, I decided to use them simply break up the album.
Track 2 is about hereditary mental illness, I was inspired by numetal drumming. The audio sampled is from the film Shoplifters which I found greatly moving. It was initially composed in 2020 and then went through three iterations.
Track 3 is an industrial song heavily inspired by the Xiu Xiu song Mary Turner Mary Turner. It is a song about watching gore videos from the perspective of a child. The song was made in late 2019, then reworked from ground up and vocals recorded and added in 2022. It was released as a single in December of 2022. There is an unfinished music video for this release that will hopefully be done sometime this year.
Track 4 was composed for a separate project in 2018. It was initially a really dancey interpretation of Throbbing Gristle's Discipline. Through four reworks it became the song it is now. The track title was inspired by the lifetime and works of Genesis P.orridge.
Track 6 was recorded mixed and mastered in the spawn of 24 hours mid 2022. It is otherwise unedited. It is about psychosis.
Track 7 is a song about sexual assault. Rather than make my work into trauma porn I'm choosing to not go into detail. It was written and recorded in 2021 then had vocals recorded and added in 2022, the vocals have been removed on the version included on this album.
Track 9 is a gabber/breakcore inspired song. It was composed, mixed and mastered in late 2022. Initially I had properly mastered it but made the call to mix it noisier and more blown out as I believe it better suits the songs subject matter. It's my personal favorite song on the album.
Track 10 was written and recorded in mid 2022. Due to the nature of how I recorded it it's the only song that won't have stems available for other artists to use. I was loosely inspired by avant-garde folk.
Tracks 12-20 are all remixes of various songs on this record. They were done independently of myself.
The album cover is a digital collage made from my own work. It was made while on ketamine.
Jerkoff Savant is the solo Project of Pajamas Concrete, who wrote, recorded mixed and mastered tracks 1-11.